Assalamualaikum.

Second entry. Never think how I feel right now. Seriously, I damn busy with paper work. Just now I run out to Cyber Cafe for scan my practical document. What I felt? Tired. Someone want me write something about her. Yes, she want. Sincerely, I love her so much. How smart you are, how nerd you are. How other people treat you, you still my lil sis who I loved.

I'm sorry make you sad, hurt, leave many scar at your heart. But, I never meant to did it. I know, my fought always slip of tongue, never helped you but, can you see my heart? How much I cried in my heart, how I cared for you, only Allah know. I simpati with your hard day at there. I know what you feel. Without mom, dad, me, your schoolmates, you're loneliness. I tried to make you happy, but I failed. I know, my joke is not your taste. So, I keep it because I don't want slip of my tongue again. But, I keep do it until your heart hurt. Leave huge scars as I can't seen. I can't keep calm you because of this. I don't want make mistake but, I really don't want you sad. But, you always said that I never helping you. How can I helping you? Just tell me what you want, I can help it.

Sis, you're only my sis. Without you, I'm nothing. I can't get up without you. I can achieve success without. But, I really want your old back. Why you keep angry with me? Why? Why? I want your old back. Why you keep angry with me? 3 days I slept with my cry. What I'm gonna supposed without you? Kat mana akak nak bersandar bahu bila adik dah tak de? Kat mana tempat akak nak bermanja bila adik dah pergi. Jika adik merasa kehilangan akak masa akak nak sambung belajar dulu, akak pun rasa apa yang adik rasa. Masa tu, akak rasa berat sangat nak lepaskan adik belajar asasi. Takut adik tak dapat bawa. Takut ada orang buli adik. Takut ada orang curi barang adik. Takut adik tak tidur 1 malam sebab buat nota dan siapka assignment. Akak takut semuanya.

Akak teringin sangat nak jumpa adik kat sana. Tapi, selalu dihalang dengan kesibukan akak. Program tu, program ni. Nampak sangat akak busy. Tapi, akak tetap check phone buruk akak nak tau ada mesej adik atau tak. Akak gembira adik bagi akak mesej. Akak tak gembira adik tak hantar mesej kat akak. Akak tak kesah kredit akak habis. Kredit akak habis hanya untuk adik. Sebab, akak nak tau perkembangan adik. Akak nak tau apa yang adik buat sekarang ni. Akak nak tau adik pergi mana, dengan siapa. Mungkin agak keterlaluan. Tapi, keterlaluan itulah yang membuat akak benar-benar sayang adik. Mungkin sayang akak pada adik bukan di pandang dari luaran. 0.01% adik boleh nampak dari luaran. Akak mengaku, akak ni jahat. Tapi, jahat akak ada juga sisi baiknya dan akak tak kesah adik nak pandang akak sisi jahat akak. Kenapa? Sebab akak tak kesah. Orang lain pun pandang kita dengan sisi jahat dulu baru sisi baiknya.

Adik, please I begging you. I just want to know why you angry with me? I still can't get why you really angry with me. Is it about my past? Let's forget it. It'll be better. Let gone by gone. We open new book, okay? I still love you no matter you are. Where are you form. As I still breathing, I still love you full of my heart. Can you feel that I love you? =)

I love you so much. Please forgive me.........

Wassalam.