Nabiela Zakaria: June 2014

My dearest.....

By Nurul Nabilah Zakaria - 12:39:00 AM

Assalamualaikum.

Second entry. Never think how I feel right now. Seriously, I damn busy with paper work. Just now I run out to Cyber Cafe for scan my practical document. What I felt? Tired. Someone want me write something about her. Yes, she want. Sincerely, I love her so much. How smart you are, how nerd you are. How other people treat you, you still my lil sis who I loved.

I'm sorry make you sad, hurt, leave many scar at your heart. But, I never meant to did it. I know, my fought always slip of tongue, never helped you but, can you see my heart? How much I cried in my heart, how I cared for you, only Allah know. I simpati with your hard day at there. I know what you feel. Without mom, dad, me, your schoolmates, you're loneliness. I tried to make you happy, but I failed. I know, my joke is not your taste. So, I keep it because I don't want slip of my tongue again. But, I keep do it until your heart hurt. Leave huge scars as I can't seen. I can't keep calm you because of this. I don't want make mistake but, I really don't want you sad. But, you always said that I never helping you. How can I helping you? Just tell me what you want, I can help it.

Sis, you're only my sis. Without you, I'm nothing. I can't get up without you. I can achieve success without. But, I really want your old back. Why you keep angry with me? Why? Why? I want your old back. Why you keep angry with me? 3 days I slept with my cry. What I'm gonna supposed without you? Kat mana akak nak bersandar bahu bila adik dah tak de? Kat mana tempat akak nak bermanja bila adik dah pergi. Jika adik merasa kehilangan akak masa akak nak sambung belajar dulu, akak pun rasa apa yang adik rasa. Masa tu, akak rasa berat sangat nak lepaskan adik belajar asasi. Takut adik tak dapat bawa. Takut ada orang buli adik. Takut ada orang curi barang adik. Takut adik tak tidur 1 malam sebab buat nota dan siapka assignment. Akak takut semuanya.

Akak teringin sangat nak jumpa adik kat sana. Tapi, selalu dihalang dengan kesibukan akak. Program tu, program ni. Nampak sangat akak busy. Tapi, akak tetap check phone buruk akak nak tau ada mesej adik atau tak. Akak gembira adik bagi akak mesej. Akak tak gembira adik tak hantar mesej kat akak. Akak tak kesah kredit akak habis. Kredit akak habis hanya untuk adik. Sebab, akak nak tau perkembangan adik. Akak nak tau apa yang adik buat sekarang ni. Akak nak tau adik pergi mana, dengan siapa. Mungkin agak keterlaluan. Tapi, keterlaluan itulah yang membuat akak benar-benar sayang adik. Mungkin sayang akak pada adik bukan di pandang dari luaran. 0.01% adik boleh nampak dari luaran. Akak mengaku, akak ni jahat. Tapi, jahat akak ada juga sisi baiknya dan akak tak kesah adik nak pandang akak sisi jahat akak. Kenapa? Sebab akak tak kesah. Orang lain pun pandang kita dengan sisi jahat dulu baru sisi baiknya.

Adik, please I begging you. I just want to know why you angry with me? I still can't get why you really angry with me. Is it about my past? Let's forget it. It'll be better. Let gone by gone. We open new book, okay? I still love you no matter you are. Where are you form. As I still breathing, I still love you full of my heart. Can you feel that I love you? =)

I love you so much. Please forgive me.........

Wassalam.

nota chumel: Alhamdulillah, dah dapat tempat praktikal =)

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I'm down....

By Nurul Nabilah Zakaria - 11:07:00 PM

Assalamualaikum.

Memang hidup aku akan gelap la lepas ni!!! Why? Tempat praktikal punya pasal, aku jadi separuh gila! Tengah hari tadi, aku call temoat praktikal aku. That stupid pegawai said, tempat beliau dah penuh. What kind of this pegawai?! Dah la tak inform awal-awal. Kalau tak, tak de la aku buat kerja gila 1 hari ni.

Then, aku lari jumpa penyelia praktikal aku, kena marah pulak tu. Marah 1 hal, dia membebel lagi, telinga aku panas.

"saya dah penat nak marah-marah orang"

Hello, Mrs. Pensyarah, saya pun penat dengar anda membebel setiap hari dari sem 1. Aku terus beritahu abah pasal ni. Aku mintak abah tanya kat bapa Amsyar ada tempat kosong tak nurseri dia. Aku berharap sangat ada tempat kosong untuk aku tak nak repeat sem. Cukup la orang pandang 'senget' kat aku yang aku ni pelajar cemerlang. Aku benci mereka pandang aku macam tu.

Next week is exam week. Need to focus on my study. Unless, I'll make father sad. Seriously, sekarang ni, aku suka cakap benda yang bukan-bukan dan always made slip of tongue. Jahat kan aku? Tapi, di hadapan classmate, aku tak banyak cakap sangat kecuali dengan Najmudin. Najmudin selalu nak bercakap dengan aku. Aku pun layankan je. Act, dia ada something dengan aku. Hahahahaha! Okay Nabilah, kau sangat 'perah santan'. Malah lebih daripada itu. Aku pernah tanya dia yang dia ada feeling kat aku ke tak. Ha! Nasib baik dia tak jawab question tu. Kalau tak, mampus aku nak letak muka kat mana. Memang kat kolej kejap lagi, Esham bahan aku. STUPID ESHAM!!!!

Back to the tempat praktikal, aku berharap ada tempat kosong untuk aku dan abah akan segera beritahu aku pasal ni. Nampak sangat aku ni impatient kan? Rileks Nabilah. Nanti abah akan call kau.

Now, I'm doing paper work for my Kokurikulum's subject. Serious, nak pecah kepala buat anggaran. Aku pun main tibai je. Harap Naza tak marah aku esok. Esok jugak, lecturer subjek Keusahawanan nak jumpa aku termasuk classmate aku. Nak bagi soalan exam. Serius, kecut perut. Tak sedar next week nak exam! Wargh!!!! 1 apa pun subjek ni aku tak baca! Nak pengsan fikir pasal ni! Okay, bertenang Nabilah. Yakin pada diri. Oops! Jangan over-confident pasal ni. I really hope aku boleh buat kali ni. =)

Wassalam.

nota chumel: M.E.N.T.A.L B.R.E.AK.D.O.W.N!!!!!!

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Liebster Award?!

By Nurul Nabilah Zakaria - 12:32:00 PM

Assalmualaikum.

Liebster Award? Ntah apa benda merepek la aku kena kerjakan. Disebabkan aku kena tag dengan Adik Kim Nadhi ni, aku jawabkan je la. Ngee~

These are her question -_-

1. Being alone or being ignored

To me, I like being alone.

2. What does you feel like you been ignored?

When my classmate doesn't want to talk with me suddenly.

3. What do you think will affect you the most, friend or teacher?

Both. *maybe* Hahahahaha. Can't think instantly!

4. What field of music suits you? e.g piano, guitar or maybe singing.

Piano and guitar!

5. What scared you most?

Scary movie!

6. Hat or shoes? Why?

Shoes. I never wear hat since after SPM.

7. Chocolate or cheese?

Chocolate! I like chocolate!

8. How long had you been to your bestfriend?

Since secondary school until now.

9. What is your uglier. your writting or your signature?

My signature maybe. Hahahahahaha!

10. Sleep or shopping?

Both!

11. Hardworking or relax? Why?

Both. To me, doing something needs to be passion and hardworking. But, sometimes we need some relaxing time when we doing something =)

Okay, dah habis aku jawab soalan-soalan ni. Sekarang ni, aku nak bagitau rules, nominee and what's the question.

Da Rules:
1) Mention the person who nominated you with a link to their blog.
2) Answer 11 questions asked.
3) Nominated 11 others bloggers lots of potential.
4) Create 11 question set for them to answer.
5) Notify your nominee

Da Nominee:
1) http://donttakeitfromme.blogspot.com/
2) http://nurainahusnabintizin.blogspot.com/
3) http://akulahdirikuanne.blogspot.com/
4) http://hanieshamdan.blogspot.com/
5) http://fantajjikland.blogspot.com//
6) http://clazziquaimae.blogspot.com/
7) http://charming-yeol.blogspot.com/
8) http://zahrenn.blogspot.com/
9) http://missrefafath.blogspot.com/
10) http://underskema.blogspot.com/
11) http://shielasyaza.blogspot.com/

Da Questions:
1) Your face and character who you most look alike? Mom or dad?
2) Jubah or muslimah blouse which do you prefer?
3) Did you like stay at hostel or rent house?
4) Japan or Europe? Why?
5) What's your dreaming wedding? No more than 100 words.
6) Shoes or blouse?
7) Malaysian guy or Korean guy? Why?
8) Sony or Samsung?
9) Pulau Tioman or Pulau Jeju?
10) What you wish for your 100 relationship with your bf?
11) Which colour you most like? It's connected with your character?

Wassalam.

nota chumel: Semalam lawan Catur Bistari kalah. But, memang nak kalah pun. Tak berminat nak main bisnes lagi! >,<

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